so,startedmy job today. I'm working at Epire like every over relative of mine in the tricounty area -.-# . heh... it does have its perks though, i'm working two days (16 hours) a week for 10 dollars and hour. 160 a week minus taxes, so prolly like 120-130 a week. how awesome is that? and if there are ever any busy days then i'll go into the office for those too, which would mean an extra 80 for that week. (let's hope that happens often since i dont have much else to do) i want a better camera that costs about 350 or so dollars i think so hopefully i can have that by the end of summer. ( i know,i could have it in three weeks, but i'm putting half of my paycheck each week into a savings account and then i'm also gonna set some aside to put in a checking account or at least something similar) so i should have like, 60 bucks a week cash with what's left of paycheck and my allowance.


oh, and yay for gaia.

^_^

why would you joke like that... and of all the things to joke about...

( Picture from la playa and a few from monday )

goddess i feel like crying right now. i just got into the stupidest fight with thomas on the phone and my bangs are too short and i don't have pretty cleavage like lindsay and my mother and i don't get along at all...i know this is all so stupid but ever since the moment i got up this morning all i've wanted to do is cry until there's nothing left.

( PIctures Pictures Everywhere! Part 3:The final entry )

( Pictures Pictures Everywhere! Part 2 (one more entry left and i'll leave you all be for the rest of the night) )

( PIctures Pictures Everywhere! Part 1 )

FIRSTS
First best friend: Taylor Longenecker
First real memory of something: um, playing copmputer games in daycare
First date: watching Dice perform and then hanging out with him and Tim afterwards at his high school
First break-up: week before my 15th birthday
First job: haven't had one
First screen name: shakespearefan89
First self purchased album: Savage Garden
First funeral: don't remember
First pets: candy
First piercing/tattoo: Ears, age 3
First credit card: none
First true love: dangerous to try and figure it out
First enemy: All boys at the age of 4
First big trip: Maryland when i was like, 2
First play/musical/performance: ninth grade in drama class
First musician you remember hearing in your house: Mozart or Bach. Great men.

LASTS
Last cigarette: "Never, God likes people with pink squishy lungs." to quote Lindsay
Las big car ride: um... no clue
Last kiss: ...*kisses thomas on cheek* now!
Last good cry: proly a week or so ago
Last library book checked out: Memoirs of Cleopatra
Last movie seen: wow... i... have no clue even though i'm pretty sure i watched one two days ago
Last beverage drank: Pepsi
Last food consumed: a crunch wrap supreme from taco bell
Last crush: LIndsay i guess?
Last phone call: Thomas, no thought required there
Last tv show watched: House
Last time showered: This morning, of course
Last shoes worn: My black tennis shoes.. what else?
Last cd played: Mix cd of emo/dance music
Last item bought: um... spearmint tic tacs?
Last disappointment: Not knowing i had a math final 2nd period ^.^;;
Last soda drank: Pepsi at lunch
last time wanting to die: now, i'm being tickled!
last time scolded: at lunch wheni didn't answer my phone.... but it so wasn' my fault that i couldn't hear it!
last shirt worn: black tee-shirt... big surprise there -.-#
last website visited: lj.com

A is for - Age: 16 until next month
B is for - Boyfriend/Girlfriend: thomas
C is for - Career in future: research psychologist/university professor of developmental psychology
D is for - Dad's name: Michael/Jeff
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: Whipped Cream! ~.^
F is for - Favorite musician/band: Panic! At The Disco for the moment
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: Guys-2, Girls- 5
H is for - Hometown: Orange City
I is for - Instruments you play: ....i can... um... play a chord or two on the guitar but that's about it
J is for - Job title: student and over the summer i'll be a little run-around type person
K is for - Kind of ice cream that's your favorite: Cookies and Cream
L is for - Living arrangement: MOther, Stepfather
M is for - Mom's name: Karen
N is for - Number of times you've been out of the country: 3 on cruises
O is for - Optimist or pessimist?: Optimist with little things, pessimist with bigger
P is for - Phobia[s]: frogs, crowded spaces filled with strangers
Q is for - Quote you like: "Who needs lightbulbs when you have light up boobs?!" -Lindsay
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: 2 years
S is for - Sex: Female
T is for - Time you wake up: 5:08
U is for - Unique trait(s): i am extraordinarily childish
V is for - Vegetable you love: none
W is for - Worst habit: procrastination and not listening properly
X is for - X-treme stuff you've done: not how you spell extreme and um... nothing
Y is for - Years you've lived in Florida: 16 going on 17
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Cancer

why must everything i write about my future be focused on who has left me? is it so very impossible for me to realize that life might actually turn out ok for me? i guess so...

so lunch was kinda awkward today. we went to moes after the exam and well, 1) i have decided i'm not a big moes fan so will not be going back there too soon 2) thomas was also there with another group. i wanted to go and hang out with them for a bit but i've never exactly been too good at dealing with the whole more than one group of friends deal... this is why gifted wa so good for me. eveyone was friends with everyone and there was no split, but thomas doesn't relaly like any of my friends an i don't generally have much to say to any of his although i far from dislike them. so i felt bad for thinking of leaving my table temporarily and he just doesnt like my table... so we just had like, 3 minor glances the entire like, 45-60 inutes we were both there. hmmm, i don't really like molly. she came over about halfway through moulin rouge this afternoon. moulin rouge is good, as always, but definitely better when you just watch it. yes, i was guilty of singing along with ewan and nicole.. but only when other people already were. *sigh* watching movies in groups makes me sad, i prefer doing so alone or with like, one other person. cause then if people talk, you know its acceptable, but if there are three or more and a few people talk you never know and someone might end up mad. bah, oh well.... things just aren't very happy right now so i suppose i'll deal with it. maybe thats why yesterday was nice, i was only conscious for three hours the entire day...